02 October 2007
Peace of Mind v. the Blues
I have been in a kind of a funk since my dad died in March. I never really felt close to him yet I miss him like crazy. I haven't been doing the things I love to do and I really haven't given Ashley's wedding the attention I usually give these things... until today.
When I woke up this morning I really felt blue. I can't say I have ever really felt this way before. I didn't want to get dressed, I didn't even want to shower. All this really kinda freaked me out.
Many of you don't know this but I was a pre-med major for three years at Truman State and I have this really awful habit of diagnosing me and my family. I think I am experiencing dysthymia, a mild form of depression. Well, that just ticked me off, because I have always felt that people are in charge of their own feelings.
So I came home, reheated my mac and tomatoes and had myself a great dinner. Then I cleaned my kitchen, which desperately needed it. And then, I got out all my fall stuff and decorated my house and front porch for Halloween.
I had such a great time! I am feeling really good about it and I was able to get over myself for today. I am not so naive to think this will cure everything, but now I know what works for me.
Here are a few photos from my decorating frenzy. I hope you enjoy them, not just for their beauty but for the peace of mind they represent!